Getting Complacent (again!!!!!)

Apparently I'd written another entry with the same title, since Blogger prompted it as I started typing it in.

I'm a bit frustrated with myself, that I am getting complacent about Cassie. And that seems so wrong because the death sentence is still facing her. Yes, she's survived longer than the median. And other than the original seizure and the minor one that led to the blindness, she's been symptom free for 2 months. But, I'm pretty sure it will happen again. And her condition/behavior will get worse. And eventually we'll have to decide to put her to sleep.

My cousin sent out an email yesterday to confirm the date for a family get-together in NJ in August. My reply back to the group was that I was waiting for our dog to die. That's never far from my mind. But, I mostly prefer the happy thoughts and warm afternoons in the backyard reading with Cassie laying on the rug.

I'm a bit surprised/? that in nearly 24 hours none of my cousins has commented on my statement about waiting for Cassie to die...

The complacency extends to the idea that I pet her disractedly and am less likely to lay down on the floor with her and rub her. I do make it a point to say goodnight and also goodby (when I go out) in a physical way. I have to do better...

Finally, the next 2 posts will be pictures. But, and this is what prompted this entry being called complacent, I've only got photos for 2 of the last 4 days -- the worst performance in 2 months since this started.

P.P.S. Cassie has slept through the night the past 2 nights. And, she's seemed more adapted to the pills the past couple days. Maxine thinks it corresponds to moving from Dr. Samut's phenobarbital to Dr. Hoffman's. I hope that isn't it...